Keep trying, Ibu

I just realized one thing after all the years of struggling as a good mother and wife.

That, being a mother and a good wife as well as a good daughter is a process.

A lifetime process.

The exam is every day.

But we don't know the result yet until tomorrow.

Tomorrow, when we finally leave the world behind.

After that day, what people would remember about us is the result.

After that day, what Allah would reward us is the result.

So, just keep trying, Ibu.

And don't be sad anymore to be a not-perfect person ...

Just a feeling (s)

I don't understand why someone keeps complaining about life but didn't try to make it better. 

A couple of days ago, I tried to serve something to my family even though my heart felt heavy with nothing -- I just felt so sad and stressed out. But, I saw how my effort to cook didn't appreciate, the food ended up in the garbage the next day. With my period coming, I couldn't handle my feeling. Feeling not appreciated, feeling not capable, feeling not enough for everyone.